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About Literature / Professional Premium Member Amanda GrahamUnited States Groups :iconcultusaesthetici: CultusAesthetici
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Deviant for 3 Years
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... small pieces of the I ...


... messages ... to you ...

Published Works (all free)

The Blonde The Brunette (complete) by Amanda-Graham Poems of Love by Amanda-Graham the girl desired by Amanda-Graham
Dishonor by Amanda-Graham Orchard by Amanda-Graham Life Roar Heat by Amanda-Graham
Helen Ghosts by Amanda-Graham


. rocket science .

Beyond the wound by Mheely


... with her, love was rocket science after all ...

... the only moments in which our eyes met, locked, and looked steadily was when we fucked; that's Asperger's with both of us ...

... "drive out in the desert and meet me, i'm waiting, i'm wet” ...

... photos of her gate in that small place on the hillside, her garden, a squirrel, the surf where she always belonged ...

... her in the clubs, library, avoiding passing people, staring at the sidewalks, cars, windows, wishing she were back in Paris again ...

... whispering in French to each other, she would laugh and i would tickle, my French was so awful ...

... unlike any other she kept me abreast of her days, fully informed, i felt safe in her arms ...

... still so many stubs of her and i, small notes kept safe from travel, tucked here and there so that now i find her over and over ...

a note in a margin

small tattered fabric

pressed flower she'd planted

paper torn from a napkin

jotted address

ruled paper message

"i love you"

... wondering still, with the release from all the demands and pressures; is she finally free? is she loving randomly? is she bi again? ...

... it's all that she'd wanted, that sense of freedom and action, it matched her distraction ...

... the moment when our differences became apparent was when we both were betrayed by others; she got longed for freedom, i destruction ...

- whatever depression i suffer from i know it's situational and not chronic; it all depends upon how i'm being mistreated -

I've left words for you everywhere that I know you might find them. Pages of the Internet, emails, dA comments and notes. I suppose there might be others we know in common who hear from you still; which only makes it worse at times. Your cell is gone but we'd spoken about that before you left. Not a day passes that I do not miss you, though many passed between our speaking together with that next to last distance becoming between us.

Friends then lovers then anger then friends and lovers we transitioned in agreement. Now though, I long to find you if only to know ... to know how this past year and more has passed; if you are still in France, or back in the Bay area, with that old love of yours or some other. Just to hear you tell me of your days.

Just a hello i'm alive and okay.


... we did the impossible, defeating the gravity of all, standing it on ends, spun webs, danced with wind, blew glass sands; we were the ones ...

.note # 312.

... where are you where are you where are you where are you where are you where are you ...

© Amanda 2015
"Beyond the wound" by :iconmheely: © 2014


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Amanda Graham
Artist | Professional | Literature
United States
I became a loom ... a work of wood and oils and flesh and pain ... I became words, woven together to impart myself, an offering of memory and love ... I became a crowd of voices longing for that final color that might complete ... I am Amanda here to open, here to pound loud and set you upon a journey ...

Let me tell you a story ...

Farcebook™ I only use for music and posting links to my work here ... Gargle Plus is the same ... now ... TubeOfYou? lots of music that i likes mmm hmmm

TweakerCreature™ - i might answer i might not ... i never know from day to day; be patient i have things to weave - @blondeonhorse

Tube You My Channel -…

For the ensconced demented deviants among us!

Yes, I AM a gay American woman; and damn proud of that. I flirt shamelessly with females, males, and photos of kittens. Anyone who let’s that go to their heads (eyes.the.homophobic.female.artist) is not only stupid but arrogant.




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mippieArt Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Tag a quality deviant, You’re it! :iconflyingheartsplz: Quality doesn't mean that you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you’re nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. :iconheartdanceplz: If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don’t care how much followers you have. Send this to 10000 deviants who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But, it’s just good to let someone know that you love them! :iconheartballoonplz:
Adherance Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2015
Thank you.
fragilemuse-org Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2015
Thank you for all the favs! :hug:
scheinbar Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thanks so much!

Happy New Year :love:
Monocephalized Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the favourite.
bareHa Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
Thank you for the favourites. They mean much since your own work I find so moving as to be almost terrifying. Thanks again
ElenaHelfrecht Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2014  Professional Photographer
Thank you so, so much! ♥ :hug:
skulkey Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
lost in language, lost in sound
Amanda-Graham Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2014  Professional Writer
i love it ... confusion about whether you were involved in production or that you were referring to the music you were playing at that moment

skulkey Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
it was what i was playing at the moment (sorry to confuse).  i wish my stuff was that good. ;)
Wicked-Faerie Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you for the favorites on Truly Living Parts 1 and 2. <3 
m-gosia Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2014
+fav Heart Frost by m-gosia  
Amanda-Graham Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2014  Professional Writer
*holds your hand waits for the greens while loving the browns and whites*
m-gosia Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2014
rioMenor Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2014
hi Amanda! Thank you so much for the :+fav:s and the :+devwatch: :thanks:...  :heart:
EkaFantasy Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Lily Thank you  for the Watch and the points Heart Love :love: Redbull glomp 
abbi-e Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2014
Amanda-Graham Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2014  Professional Writer
diosenzanome Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2014   General Artist
and thanks for all the support
diosenzanome Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2014   General Artist
thank you so much for the fave ;)
jade-pandora Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2014
Galaxy Collision  Fire chantHail, Amanda.  The planets are aligned.         
In other words, our auras are well met. :cookieplz: Emote: COOKIES
(truly wondrous, your aura is a cookie)

And celestial thanks to you for faving:

"Senryu, and How It Differs from Haiku", and
"Will I also return"
Autumn--Moon Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave! 
m-gosia Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2014
Thank you for the fave!+fav +fav +fav +fav Hug 
Amanda-Graham Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2014  Professional Writer
(soft.kiss) *deep stare into eyes*
m-gosia Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2014
Turquoiseheart2 by AudraMBlackburnsArt  
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